Turning 30

I think I might be having a mid-life crisis. And I'm not even mid-life yet (I hope). I'll be turning 30 in just a few short weeks and I have never felt such a lack of confidence in myself. Perhaps it's because I finished reading about people who were locked at 17 forever and swathed in immortal beauty. Anyone would feel jealous of that, right?

Or maybe it's really because I'm turning 30, still have not lost the weight I wanted to, need a pedicure, a manicure and a new hairstyle and possibly contacts again. Actually the spa stuff is no problem. Josh gave me a gift certificate to the local dayspa. Check. New clothes? Sure...but who wants all that when they just feel horrible about themselves? NOT ME.

I keep catching reflections of myself in mirrors and cringing. Is that REALLY me in the glass? I barely even recognize the person anymore. I rush past hoping to ignore the vision and then sneak back and cringe in horror. It's like a train wreck I can't get away from.

So, for 30, I'm giving myself a complete makeover. I am going to lose more than the 7pounds I have lost this year. I am going to get a new hair style, some new makeup, that manicure, pedicure and maybe, just maybe some new self confidence.

Oh let's face it. I'll never be able to wear a bikini, no matter how slender I can get again. Stretch marks don't just magically disappear (and let me just say....having a baby that constantly moves and is fairly long ...REALLY leaves some nasty stretch marks!), I'll probably never be flirted with again by guys that look like they just stepped off the pages of an Abercrombie and Fitch magazine...but I CAN feel better about myself. Even at 30. Even at 30. Ugh. I cringe just thinking those numbers.

And maybe it's not so much the fact that I *LOOK* like I'm 30 that bothers me, but the fact that emotionally, mentally and life-wise, I'm not where I thought I would be at 30. I had pictured an entire list of accomplishments to my name at this stage in my life, but I look at it now, and see.....very few of those things that I wanted so badly.

When did turning 30 "happen"?? It seems just yesterday I was turning 19. Life keeps flying by so fast and there is never enough time for those things that I feel are important to me, as my own person.

I'm sure my husband thinks I'm headed for a mental breakdown. He keeps catching me sobbing and bemoaning the coming birthday as though it signals some kind of doomsday for the world. Surely someone else has had this reaction to 30??

Reaganisms

While driving through a neighborhood in Alabama last month, in the dead quiet of the car, Reagan pops up and says:

"Anyone see any good garage sales?" All of us errupted in laughter! It's a well known fact I'm an avid garage-saler and Reagan is my little partner!

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Reagan had her toenails painted for the first time about a month and a half ago..and as you can imagine, they quickly needed redoing. She came up to me in the afternoon one day and said "Mommy, paint my toenails so I can go shopping!!" EEEK!!!

I'm back :)

After a couple of weeks of not blogging, I am back! Lately it seems like there is never enough time in the day to do everything that needs to be done. But I'm here and promise I'll blog as much as possible!

In the meantime, I have some Reaganisms coming for you this week! Enjoy!

Ah, spring!

I haven't been blogging much lately mostly because I have so much going on and am so tired and it's so nice outside, who wants to be in front of a computer all the time!? And the times that I am on? Well, it's spent looking for houses!

But my latest obsession is the Twilight series...ok, I just finished book two and I can say I am STILL FIRMLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY all Edward's!! I literally skipped half of book two just waiting for him to reappear..I kept looking forward until I saw him and just skipped a bunch of the 'junk' in between :) (Actually I did skim most it so I would know what was going on in the rest of the series!)

But this morning I did the unthinkable..I googled to see if what I wanted to happen in the end of the series, happens. I never do that. I usually wait it out and read through the entire book, but I couldn't help it. I think I may seriously be addicted to Edward! lol (gee..like every girl between 15 and 40 isn't!!!)

Update

Well, we finally did it--our house is officially on the market and we're just anxiously waiting for it to sell. We've started looking around at some other homes, but haven't really done any in-depth looking--although there is a house I'm attracted to!

Reagan has yet another ear infection and is on antibiotics again. I'm asking her immunologist to do some testing on her. Josh and I have been hard at work getting the house ready and are looking forward to some much needed rest.

I guess that's about it! Hope everyone had a fantastic Mother's Day!

wowza......

I realize I'm a little late to the game on this, but I *just* watched Twilight last night. I have never read the books, but really wanted to see the movie and Josh surprised me by renting it so I could watch it upon my return from Alabama.

Let me just say, I'd gladly take a bite from Edward any day....

Back!

Ugh! Sorry for the past week of new posts! I went on vacation, THINKING I would have internet access and didn't! Therefore, I have been blissfully unaware of most things in the world and it was quite wonderful. Back to the real world I guess...more updates, the giveaways (finallY!!) and Reaganisms headed your way this week!!